sibei jialat.

still cannot let go... i had this strong urge not to go down clubbing last night and in the end, i got home and chill. only to know that you were there that night. im whining about missing the chance to see u by coincidence. but am happy that i wouldnt have to be awkward happy knowing u were within my conscious zone. prolly not gonna handle it well if i saw you. so what if i cannot take it, not like it matters to you..

peace out

what?

it doesnt matter anymore.

as long as the smile is there.

i suppose its okay.

yeah i know. "i know"? guys say that alot. even me...

sucks. how i wish it would be like the story lines of movies/animes/ or whatever that's fictitious i guess. so what even i... well. 2/3 years. i can.... but if its otherwise you wish, there's nth i can do but bluff, cheat, lie, suppress and do whatever it takes to come to it... emo? no. just a lil like isaac mendez maybe? lol....no! lol yes im drunk. when i look at this, i would say "i was drunk", and no matter how drunk, how stupid it gotten, ridiculous it gets, it, at this moment and from that day on, yes... and it always will. i think of how not strong im and forgot how not weak im. i''ll change. indefinitely. i just wanna rant it out. dont bother me with it. but... idk. u made me strong and u brought me to my weakest. will cope it somehow. emo? no. miss you? yes. grrrr.

wanna know how much is there left.
since its ur very wish to empty everything.
do it like u have the upper hand.
but if u dont, u are hurting somebody.
...................ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

something i heard from somebody.

"so what?" i'll be saying it to whoever! when i have the upper hand.. and be more ruthless than anybody. u dont dare to admit u hit me. if i find u, i make sure you wish u were never born. well, im not gonna find u bastard.

me.